Why Can't I Comprehend My Own Existence?
The question of understanding ourselves is one that has puzzled philosophers, mystics, and simply curious individuals for centuries. Why can't we fully grasp the essence of who we are? The answer lies in the complex interplay between our true selves and the illusionary aspect of our consciousness.
Our true essence, the real ‘you,’ is incredibly subtle and intrinsic to the fabric of the universe. It is impossible for us to have a direct, objective understanding of this true self. Instead, our perceptions and experiences are colored by a reflective layer—a false ‘you’ that is merely a fanciful thought in our waking state. Seeking a direct, objectified understanding of our true self is like attempting to catch our own reflection in a mirror; it is inherently impossible.
The Analogy of the Eye and Consciousness
To better understand this concept, let us consider the analogy of the eye. The eye can perceive the entire creation, but it cannot see itself. However, the eye can infer its existence based on what it sees. Similarly, the subjective light called consciousness, which is our true self, can perceive and understand the world through innumerable perceptual mechanisms. It intuits its own existence through the seamless hologram it perceives within itself.
Just as the Hubble and J. W. Schmidt telescopes cannot take a self-portrait, our consciousness knows itself through the perceptions it receives. This awareness is self-evident and self-luminous. It does not seek external validation but is, instead, a passive witness of the perception field.
The Musk Deer’s Quest for Its Own Scent
Consider the story of the musk deer that searches the entire forest to localize the fragrance of its own musk. This tale symbolizes our endless quest for a meaningful reason for life. However, life doesn’t require a meaningful reason. It simply exists. Our search for meaning is a result of our inherent curiosity and the desire to understand ourselves better.
One of the first steps towards understanding ourselves is to set an intention. At the age of 60, for example, we might declare our desire to understand ourselves better. This intention, even if seemingly vague, acts as a compass, guiding our thoughts and actions. Our senses, in turn, become more alert and attentive. Slowing down in a fast-paced world allows our brains to process information more effectively, and we begin to appreciate the nuances of our existence.
Face-to-Face Encounters and Mutual Clues
Understanding ourselves also involves facing others. We each provide clues and cues that, in combination, help us piece together the puzzle of self. The idea that we all share the same pool of existence is fundamental. By slowing down, listening to others, and observing our interactions, we can gain insights into our own behaviors and their effects.
Understanding something, whether it's ourselves or a complex phenomenon, can be approached as a form of research. We can step back, analyze our actions, and observe their consequences, much like conducting peer review studies. As observers and testifiers of all things, we can gain a deeper understanding of our own existence.
In conclusion, the journey of understanding ourselves is a profound and often elusive endeavor. By recognizing the limitations of our reflective consciousness and embracing the subtle art of self-perception, we can gain a more holistic understanding of who we truly are. The ultimate aim is to appreciate the intricate dance of life and the awe-inspiring game we are in.
Let us know how your exploration of self-perception unfolds.