The Journey to the Right University Course: Lessons in Identity and Passion

Choosing the right university course is a crucial decision that can shape one's academic and professional journey. A personal example highlights the importance of aligning choices with intrinsic motivations and long-term goals.

From Computer Science to Engineering: A Snap of Reality

During my junior year, I decided to change my major from Computer Science to Engineering out of necessity. To graduate, I needed to complete 11 additional classes in Computer Science and two minors. My draft number was 72, which meant there was a high likelihood of being drafted to the Vietnam War.

Choosing the Right Path

At my boarding school, a prestigious record of well-placed students was the norm, with 12 boys matriculating to Yale, 6 to Harvard, 2 to Penn, Harvard, and the Naval Academy, Stanford, and Williams.

Overthinking the Decision

I never changed my courses and am still not sure the decision was the right one. I should have given more thought to the future and picked a major that would provide a stable job. Looking back, music and engineering were not the best choices given my long-term aspirations.

A Turning Point in the Right Course

My journey towards the right course began when I was a second-year undergraduate at the University of Cambridge, studying Music.

Initial Discontent and Consideration

I was not impressed with my music studies, finding them dry and lacking in depth. I felt the analysis of pieces of music and compositional exercises lacked a real understanding of validity and correctness. I was considering a switch to Theology due to my interest in Religious Studies.

Theology vs. Music

Theology was more inquisitive and open-ended, asking fundamental questions about religion, its purpose, and how it relates to other fields like philosophy and psychology. Music, on the other hand, was perceived as dry and lacking in a deeper understanding of the subject. I felt Theology was more compelling and offered a more comprehensive exploration of my interests.

The Definitive Decision

Despite initial plans to switch to Theology, I stayed on the music course due to several factors.

The Realization of Academic Identity

My second year turned out to be the best of my undergraduate experience. I encountered courses that truly fascinated me, including Psychology of Music, Ethnomusicology, and rigorous examination of music analysis. I started to question my long-held beliefs and deepen my understanding of music.

Subconscious Motivation

There was an underlying sense of responsibility and gratitude that prevented me from changing courses hastily.

I realized that studying music was deeply embedded in my identity. I could not just throw away something I loved and valued so deeply. This realization reinforced my decision not to change subjects.

Conclusion: Analyzing Subconscious Decisions

When considering a change in university courses, it's crucial to listen to your subconscious as well as your conscious thoughts.

Understand that the practical considerations are important, but underlying emotions and identities also play a significant role. Be patient and willing to explore different areas to find the true path that aligns with your interests and long-term goals.

In my case, staying on the Music course led to a fulfilling academic and professional journey. This experience taught me that making the right choice often involves a combination of practical considerations and emotional alignment with one's true passions.