Discovery of Self-Worth

One of my best ideas, which I have termed the Peace Soldier, is both the title of a book and a journey I embarked upon to understand and shape my own journey. It involves overcoming significant hurdles, from dysfunctional upbringing and negative influences to regrettable choices in personal relationships. This idea, if successful, will change all of us by fostering peace and understanding.

Understanding Self-Worth and Toxic Relationships

My journey began with a realization that the challenges I faced during childhood and adolescence were due to my upbringing and the influence of a narcissistic sibling and a cheating racist father. The beliefs instilled in me during those years no longer served me well. I made numerous regrettable choices in my personal relationships, obeying a false sense of normalcy and gravitating towards toxic partners who appeared impressive on the surface but exhibited destructive behavior behind closed doors. Ignoring the warning signs, I clung to one person until the next came along, much like a monkey swinging through the forest.

Breaking Free from Denial and Depression

Trapped in denial and plagued by depression, anxiety, and insomnia, I was surrounded by toxic individuals. My reactions to their behavior were driven by ego, and I took everything personally. I refused to accept the reality and consistently lied to myself. Then, a moment of clarity hit me. I realized that I held the steering wheel of my life. Each day, I had the power to shape my reality by making better choices. Gradually, I started accepting things as they were and making decisions based on the truth of the situation.

Focusing on Self-Improvement

Instead of trying to change others, I focused on changing myself. The opinions of others no longer held weight over me. I rediscovered my true self and set goals aligned with my aspirations. I surrounded myself with supportive friends who reflected the person I aspired to be. These individuals inspired and taught me valuable lessons.

Embracing Solitude

I grew comfortable and content with spending time alone. Shifting my focus away from others' expectations and desires, I found my path and my life began to transform. Embracing solitude, I relished the freedom of making decisions autonomously without needing to consult numerous individuals. I learned to appreciate my own company, recognizing that it is far better than being with the wrong person, working at the wrong job, residing in an undesirable location, engaging in activities I don't enjoy, or visiting places I have no interest in. I no longer went through the motions without genuine desire.

Confidence in Self- Worth

Now, I stand confident in the knowledge that I am enough. I am the sole author of my decisions, accountable to no one else. My life is extraordinary and independent of anyone else's success. No one can take away what I have achieved, and I no longer attach myself to the lives of others. I am content because of the choices I have made.